Trepidatious.

 As all the people heard of the king’s deep grief for his son, the joy of that day’s victory was turned into deep sadness. They crept back into the town that day as though they were ashamed and had deserted in battle. The king covered his face with his hands and kept on crying, “O my son Absalom! O Absalom, my son, my son!”

 Then Joab went to the king’s room and said to him, “We saved your life today and the lives of your sons, your daughters, and your wives and concubines. Yet you act like this, making us feel ashamed of ourselves. You seem to love those who hate you and hate those who love you. You have made it clear today that your commanders and troops mean nothing to you. It seems that if Absalom had lived and all of us had died, you would be pleased. Now go out there and congratulate your troops, for I swear by the Lord that if you don’t go out, not a single one of them will remain here tonight. Then you will be worse off than ever before.”

2 Samuel 19: 2-7 

Even though we can ask for the Holy Spirit to help us to deeply understand God’s message, we sometimes see the whole message unclear. And some of us like to hear from God very specifically what He wants us to do for Him. So with that in mind and since I am very much inspired by the verse, here’s the story for today’s post.

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Like an avalanche, my thoughts keep rushing down and I am being entombed by it. I feel unease, there are times I can’t eat nor speak– or I don’t want to.

I won’t say that this is equivalent to torture but when will it end?

The thing is when I end it I have to take my life with it.

But what options do I have?

No matter what I do the time will continue and I will have to face my fate. I can only pause and play on this track entitled Life, I could stop but what then? I can’t restart nor refresh, repeating would be worse.

Stop? No.

Let me emphasize this “option”

If I’ll stop, I’ll never know what’s happens next. I cannot just be negative with my assumptions. It’s a fifty-fifty chance. Place your bet on one of the two but never give up your one-hundred percent self.

The sun rises and sets but even in the deepest night, there would be lights to guide you and give you hope. Making you feel comfort and relax. Though there would be wolves and in order for you to be safe, built a shelter for yourself, it doesn’t have to look perfect. Built it with a strong foundation of Prayer and Trust, walls of God’s word, windows of Reality, roofed with Faith and Hope, and try to decorate the rest with Positivity. Also, do add a door, just in case someone comes to encourage you, you can let them in.

Truly our mind is powerful. Even if you have a house to keep it safe, it is still your choice if you’ll consider it as your home. Because our mind can turn everything else filled with color to black and white starting with one question:

What more do I have to lose?

C.C

Featured Photo: Cabin House Drawing from Google Images
Verse: biblegateway.com (NLT)

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